I can’t remember why exactly I decided to read this book. It was late last year, and I was reading one of my favourite books The Way of Kings by Brandon Sanderson, but in between breaks I looked for lighter, shorter books to escape into. I must’ve searched up ‘light-hearted short books’ or something of that sort. The reason I’m starting with saying all this is to outline that this isn’t the usual kind of book I read but I read it anyway. Before I go on, this post contains *spoilers* in the third paragraph, so if you want to read the book please don’t read further than that.
The Convenience Store Woman is a very short book and I finished it within a few hours spread out over two days. It’s about a Japanese woman, Keiko, who has always been…’different’ from everyone else. She works in a convenience store and she’s very happy working there day in and day out – in fact, she’s worked at the same store for 18 years, ever since the store opened. Her family, and her friends worry about her and whether she’ll ever be normal. And she tries her best to try to be normal, hence the job in the convenience store – a normal job with guidelines on how to be a good employee and a simple enough rulebook that she follows to the very last dot. But after 18 years, working the same job – well, society doesn’t find that normal does it?
*Spoilers*
Okay, so there’s a lot about this book.
I think the reason I kept reading it was because I was intrigued by how weird the main character was and it seemed she was weird for no clear reason. I expected some sort of explanation as to why she was that way, and I hoped for some resolution where she becomes normal or at least is accepted by her peers for who she is. But the book gave me none of that and near the end of the book I realised that it must be satire. I realised that the point of the book was to make Keiko into a caricature of a social pariah, like Sheldon Cooper, except worse. So at first the book made me laugh, when little Keiko thought the solution to how to stop a fight was to knock the people involved over the head with a shovel. Then I was alarmed when I saw adult Keiko still applying this same line of reasoning to the problem of how to stop her sister’s baby from crying. All this, I suppose, was for the author to exaggerate how weird and abnormal Keiko is, and maybe to make us feel like she really did need to be ‘fixed’ or ‘cured’.
Then as the book progresses we meet Shiraha. At first, we hate him because he’s a creep and complains about everything and everyone. Major bad vibes. And maybe we continue to hate him throughout the book all the way until the end. But at some point as I saw similarities between him and Keiko and I couldn’t fault him entirely for how he was. I saw them both as victims of a society that’s not built to accommodate people who are ‘different’, and funny enough although Shiraha is undoubtedly a terrible person, he’s the only one who lent us a better view into Keiko’s mind and how she was unfairly treated by society. (Side-note: I never want to see the phrase ‘Stone Age’ again).
Keiko’s ‘friends’ as well as Shiraha’s sister-in-law are caricatures too, I realised. They’re nosy and incredibly rude, cruel even. I recall the sister-in-law’s parting remarks to Keiko, telling her that the world would be a better place if she and Shiraha didn’t have children and didn’t leave their DNA on the planet. Ouch! I think I even clutched my chest, I was so shocked. Keiko did nothing except be different, and yes Shiraha’s a good-for-nothing but wow, don’t they deserve a chance to be happy if they want it? As I was reeling from those words I understood that maybe I was supposed to feel that way. I was supposed to feel sorry for Keiko. Well, no not for her, a fictional character but instead for those in society that are deemed different and who don’t conform to societal norms. (Although, from my point of view, a lot more people who go against societal norms are celebrated these days and there’s more acceptance in the world now. Or maybe that’s just what I see online?)
So as the book ended and Keiko ditched any chance of being accepted by society – and I felt defeated. Then I felt bad for feeling that way. There’s a quote from the book that I think sums it up. Keiko’s sister who was always so supportive of her, finds out that Keiko isn’t actually getting any more normal after all these years but rather she hasn’t changed a bit. This upsets her sister so much that she starts crying and Keiko thinks this in regard to her sister, “She’s far happier thinking her sister is normal, even if she has a lot of problems, than she is having an abnormal sister for whom everything is fine.” So as I finished the book I realised that I was just the same way, Keiko was wholeheartedly content being a convenience store worker for her entire life but I didn’t want that for her because it wasn’t normal. Yes, this is fiction, but it made me think about the standards we grow up with in our lives which dictate what is ‘normal’ and how much merit we should put in these standards?